First Post as a dad!

My last post was when there were only two of us. That seems like a very distant past. Now the days are consumed (more so Prachi's) by endless feeding cycles, diaper changes, etc. Now that Prarthna is somewhat grown up, she gives us the most amazing smiles, and also laughs for us sometimes. This makes everything so so worthwhile.

I do want to go about writing the joys of parenthood but I really want to focus on something else right now. I am putting this in writing because I really want this to happen. I want to pray to God as we did at Eric's place yesterday that He gives me the ability to lay down all the burdens that I have at his feet. If they come up again, I can lay them down again. Life, from a human standpoint, is pretty tough right now. Everyone wants us to come to India for Sudhaker's wedding. I can't find a job. Prachi needs to finish her phd. Prarthna needs all the time in the day. We need to take care of all household chores just between the two of us. My parents want to meet Prarthana. There are tons of pressures. I really want to support my family and let Prachi carry out the task of raising the beautiful baby entrusted to our care by God. But I am scared whether I would be able to earn to support them. But I know God has a way. He has always taken us through the turmoils of life. If I look back, we have always had an incredibly blessed life. We lack nothing. God has given me an amazing wife, who has always stood behind me, come what may. He has miraculously blessed us with a wonderful baby. He has blessed us financially, especially under the circumstances, when I have had to pay fees, lose funding, and what not. He has really brought us through everything. We have a place to live, food in our refrigerator, and a bunch of spare change. I just want to attribute this to my life. O Please God, help me here !!

I really hope I can find a good job soon. A work that I can be proud of, and use it to support my family. I hope Prachi doesn't have to work outside the house soon.

Most of all, I want God to help me stay upbeat, enjoy the blessings He has given me and don't worry about stuff. After all, we cannot do anything by worrying. Also, God says that if you keep worrying, you won't produce any good fruit.